Solitude..

Years of solitude has blurred my heart.....
I can barely decipher what it asks...
Emotions so convoluted....suffocating sanity..
It is better I stay my way for eternity...

For revival may bring some unknown destiny.....
For which I am so not ready...
Another step into the oblivion..
And I shall lose all sense of reason....

It is reason which I so dearly seek...
Nothing matters now & this makes me weep...
Tears console my heart ... it is still alive....
But how long will it survive?

Essence of freedom... fragrance of life...
Living for a reason....right to stand upright...
Who is it that I should follow?
Should i just tread on my own?
Not knowing what my mind needs or heart desires..
This lonesome path I so loath..